My love for him hangs onto my heart, a steel weight drenched in words unspoken & secrets untold. I hate what he did to me, the way in which he collapsed my soul like some pathetic house of cards... But him, I love.
His voice. His words. His furrowed brow. His childlike smile & the reddening warmth in his irises when he looked at me and ONLY me... A warmth that engulfed my focus & made me want to crawl into the black universe hidden as his pupil, becoming physically one with the spirit that I could already feel radiating towards me.
It isn't fair. I know they tell you to expect that, but no one ever mentioned to such an immense degree. I was stabbed in the back until the blade of betrayal pierced through to my heart, & the love therein was suddenly, surprisingly mixed with the boiling bloods of hatred.
Oh, this sorrow... When will the core-wrenching pangs of it end?
Pointless., posted March 31st, 2013, 4 comments
Updates & Thank-You's. :), posted February 23rd, 2013, 3 comments
The Chase., posted February 12th, 2013, 4 comments
Sorrow., posted December 31st, 2012, 1 comment
Uhhh... I should just say no, right? >.>, posted August 8th, 2012, 8 comments
My Wings. :), posted July 13th, 2012, 4 comments
Fighting., posted July 13th, 2012, 3 comments
Wait... Why are the corners of my mouth turning upward...? :), posted June 1st, 2012, 18 comments
Close., posted May 19th, 2012, 10 comments
Holy Crap... I've Figured it Out., posted April 24th, 2012, 4 comments
Cheater, Cheater., posted April 24th, 2012, 14 comments
Checkmate., posted April 11th, 2012, 6 comments
Pain, pain, go away., posted April 8th, 2012, 4 comments
Just a Lil' Update... :), posted March 23rd, 2012, 3 comments
Wow..., posted January 28th, 2012, 2 comments
The Strangest Longing., posted January 26th, 2012, 6 comments
A Favor, EP?, posted December 29th, 2011, 2 comments
All I Want For Christmas., posted December 24th, 2011
These Last Few Days..., posted December 18th, 2011
Blood isn't all that thick, when you think about it. -_-, posted December 6th, 2011
A piece of my world., posted November 29th, 2011
The Ache., posted November 17th, 2011, 2 comments
Loneliness vs. Bullshit., posted November 8th, 2011, 1 comment
The Moment..., posted August 13th, 2011, 2 comments
The Beautiful Mind & The Moron., posted August 5th, 2011, 5 comments
Sum quod sum ^_^, posted August 4th, 2011
The Color of Monotony., posted August 4th, 2011
Dreams With Deadlines, posted July 27th, 2011
Mi Familia, posted July 19th, 2011, 2 comments
The Soap Opera Continues..., posted July 1st, 2011, 1 comment
Citrus, posted June 24th, 2011, 3 comments
Hello Tomorrow! :), posted June 22nd, 2011, 1 comment
A Shadowed Disposition, posted June 18th, 2011, 2 comments
Anything, posted June 18th, 2011, 2 comments
Peace Found In Change., posted June 10th, 2011, 2 comments
Raw., posted May 24th, 2011, 1 comment
I can't do that... I cannot deny myself., posted May 15th, 2011
Heartbreaker?, posted May 15th, 2011, 3 comments
Note To Self:, posted May 14th, 2011, 1 comment
A Stranger's Kindness... What A Gift. :), posted May 10th, 2011, 1 comment
Iced Over, Once More., posted May 9th, 2011
Through The Blood, posted May 9th, 2011
Eight Legs, Three Words, & One HUGE Problem., posted May 3rd, 2011
Nudie Pics? Cheese & Rice. -_-, posted May 2nd, 2011, 2 comments
I cant..., posted April 30th, 2011, 1 comment
This time won't you save me? Or should I save myself...?, posted April 27th, 2011, 5 comments
Nothing., posted April 20th, 2011, 3 comments
----H-A-T-E----, posted March 30th, 2011, 2 comments
Pot Thoughts!, posted March 25th, 2011
The Bright Side., posted March 18th, 2011, 1 comment
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